1963 in 2020

I have attempted the run the year challenge for three years in a row. And, I have fallen short each time.

In 2018 I finished with 1800 miles—a new personal best and a good start. In 2019 I again set a personal best with 1801 miles but still a couple hundred below the goal.

In 2020 I was determined to run the year and run the miles. I was sick in January, so missed a few days at the first of the year, and was behind ever since.

The virtual runs offered during coronavirus lockdowns did not help. In fact I think the uncanceled runs, provided by the same people who created run the year, served as cross purposes. While racing in a number of events sounds like a good way to catch up on miles, the resting before and after a race creates a net negative affect. In 2020 I raced in over 30 virtual races. Both wanting to push myself, and to support the running community.

I sought to run these races with some integrity. Not every race was a PR, although I did set some of those. But I did not go out and simply jog a 5K or finish a marathon as a slow jog. I put out a real effort as if I was racing. Among these 30 events I ran about a half dozen marathons and ultras.

Every week the deficit for my running balance improved more and more. Soon it was in the single digits. With a week to go, I had less than 50 miles to run. I can remember thinking on Christmas Eve morning, if I wanted to, I could run this whole thing in one day. But that is not how the day would turn out.

A mile into the run I got hit head on by a car. The driver didn’t stop. I could see the headlights coming at me but it was too late to do anything about it. I flew in the air like a cartoon character and landed on my right side. The adrenaline initially masked the pain, but I soon realized my arm and leg were like Jell-O. Another attempt at running the year was finished. Another time I have fallen short.

I am lucky to be alive. I can remember details of the accident that I wish I didn’t. I am sad to have put the ones i love through this hell again. But as the tattoo on my clavicle reminds me, i will rise above.

Top 366 Albums of 2020

2020 is a year that will go down in infamy historically… but, has been a remarkable year musically. 

For the last several years I have put out a list of my top albums of the year. This year, I kept a list of all the new albums I listened to. Instead of limiting to a finite number of favorite albums, I ranked them all. This worked out to 366 albums, one for each day of the year. 

Here are my  favorite albums that came out in 2020. The year may have sucked, but the music was fantastic. Thanks to Henry Rollins and his KCRW Radio Show, Iggy Pop’s Iggy Confidential, NPRs All Songs Considered, and all the other music sites that help to keep it fresh.

What did you listen to in 2020?

2020 Albums of the Year

1. Spanish Love Songs, Brave Faces Everyone
2. Public Enemy, What You Gonna Do When the Grid Goes Down
3. IDLES, Ultra Mono
4. Arca, KiCk i
5. Nick Cave, Idiot Prayer
6. clipping., Visions of Bodies Being Burned
7. Mac Miller, Circles
8. Run the Jewels, RTJ4
9. Sault, Untitled (Black Is)
10. Sarah Mary Chadwick, Please Daddy
11. Mark Lanegan, Straight Songs of Sorrow
12. Touche Amore, Lament
13. BAMBARA, Stray
14. Tricky, Fall to Pieces
15. Eminem, Music to be Murdered By
16. Fontaines DC, A Hero’s Death
17. Juice WRLD, Legends Never Die
18. Drakeo the Ruler, Thank You for using GTL
19. Fantastic Negrito, Have you lost your mind yet?
20. Amnesia Scanner, Tearless
21. Jeff Rosenstock, No Dream
22. The Avalanches, We Will Always Love You
23. The Flaming Lips, American Head
24. Protomartyr, Ultimate Success Today
25. Perfume Genius, Set my heart on fire immediately
26. Quakers, II-The Next Wave
27. 2nd Grade, Hit to Hit
28. Oh Sees, Panther Rotate
29. Oh Sees, Metamorphosed
30. Porridge Radio, Every Bad
31. Nothing, The Great Dismal
32. Grimes, This story is dedicated to all those cyberpunks
33. Bill Callahan, Gold Record
34. Cabaret Voltaire, Shadow of Fear
35. Alien Nosejob, Suddenly Everything is Twice as Loud
36. X, Alphabetland
37. Princess Nokia, Everything Sucks
38. Princess Nokia, Everything Is Beautiful
39. Emel, The Tunis Diaries
40. Metz, Atlas Vending
41. Busta Rhymes, Extinction Level Event 2: The Wrath of God
42. Coriky, Coriky
43. Bob Mould, Blue Hearts
44. Big Sean, Detroit 2
45. Halsey, Manic
46. Dogleg, Melee
47. Juicy J, The Hustle Continues
48. Orville Peck, Show Pony
49. Sevdaliza, Shabrang
50. Son Lux, Tomorrows II
51. Son Lux, Tomorrows I
52. Oh Sees, Protean Threat
53. Cliquey Bitches, Scorpio Scorpio
54. Gulfer, Gulfer
55. J. Zunz, Hibiscus
56. Black Thought, Streams of Thought Volume 3
57. Shut it Down: Benefit for the movement for Black Lives
58. Arca, Riquiqui Bronze Instances
59. Ghostemane, Anti-icon
60. Drakeo the Ruler, We Know the Truth
61. Futuro, Os Segredos do Espaco e Tempo
62. Sufjan Stevens, The Ascension
63. Humanist, Humanist
64. Drive by truckers, The New OK
65. Logic, No Pressure
66. The Innocence Mission, See You Tomorrow
67. Le Butcherettes, Don’t Bleed
68. Magik Markers, 2020
69. Boris, Refrain
70. Nerrves, We Were Too Late Anyway
71. Alien Nosejob, Once Again the Present Becomes the Past
72. Sleeper and Snake, Fresco Shed
73. Oneohtrix Point Never, Magic Oneohtrix Point Never
74. The Bug, In Blue
75. Pop Smoke, Shoot for the stars aim for the moon
76. Soakie, Soakie
77. Diet Cig, Do you wonder about me?
78. Svalbard, When I Die Will I Get Better?
79. Ustad Saami, Pakistan is for the Peaceful
80. Body Count, Carnivore
81. Neil Young, Homegrown
82. Helena Deland, Someone New
83. Chubby and the Gang, Speed Kills
84. Pup, This place sucks ass
85. Jehnny Beth, To Love is to Love
86. Floral Tattoo, You can never have a long enough head start
87. Moses Sumney, grae
88. Kid Cudi, Man on the Moon iii
89. J. S. Ondara, Folk n Roll Vol 1, Tales of Isolation
90. Adrianne Lenker, instrumentals
91. Soul Glo, Songs to Yeet at the Sun
92. Adrianne Lenker, songs
93. Bartees Strange, Live Forever
94. Lomelda, Hannah
95. Pearl Jam, Gigaton
96. Waxahatchee, Saint Cloud
97. The Psychedelic Furs, Made of Rain
98. Dead lips, dead lips
99. The Waterboys, Good Luck, Seeker
100. Illuminati hotties, FREE I.H. This is not the one you’ve been waiting for
101. Ozzy Osbourne, Ordinary Man
102. AC/DC, Power Up 
103. Good Sad Happy Bad, Shades
104. Mourn, Self Worth
105. Gorillaz, Song Machine Episode 6
106. Childish Gambino, 3.15.20
107. The Cravats, Hooraland
108. Little Simz, Drop 6
109. Anti-Flag, 20/20 Vision
110. Hamilton Leithauser, The Loves of your life
111. The Weekend, After Hours
112. Charli XCX, how I’m feeling now
113. Grimes, Miss Anthropocene
114. Undeath, Lesions of a Different Kind
115. Angel Olson, Whole New Mess
116. Avett Brothers, The Third Gleam
117. Oklou, Galore
118. Lambchop, Trip
119. Death Valley Girls, Under the Spell of Joy
120. The Mountain Goats, Getting Into Knives
121. The Sea The Sea, Stumbling Home
122. Rina Sawayama, Sawayama
123. Deafbrick, Deafkids & Petbrick
124. Open Mike Eagle, Anime, Trauma, and Divorce
125. Jello Biafra & The Guantanomo School of Medicine, Tea Party Revenge Porn
126. Sleaford Mods, All That Glue
127. Eighth Blackbird, Singing in the Dead of Night
128. Phoebe Bridgers, Punisher
129. Rita Indiana, Mandinga Times
130. Miley Cyrus, Plastic Hearts
131. Fleet Foxes, Shore
132. Knot, Knot
133. Noveller, Arrow
134. Siti Muharam, Siti of Unguja
135. Jockstrap, Beavercore
136. Damaged Bug, Bug on Yonkers
137. Bob Dylan, Rough and Ready Ways
138. The Strokes, The New Abnormal
139. Dizzee Rascal, E3 AF
140. Fuzz, III
141. Alan Vega, City
142. Seth Bogart, Men on the Verge of Nothing
143. Boris, No
144. Halsey, Manic: Or are you normal
145. Tori Amos, Christmastide
146. Tom Morello, Comandante
147. Black Eyed Peas, Translation
148. Bright Eyes, Down in the Weeds, Where the world once was
149. Elvis Costello, Hello Clockface
150. Juliana Barwick, Healing is a miracle
151. Code Orange, Underneath
152. Eminem, Music to be Murdered by Side B
153. Annaca, Solace
154. Sightless Pit, Grave of a Dog
155. Nova Twins, Who are the girls?
156. Ian William Craig, Red Sun Through Smoke
157. Krust, The Edge of Everything
158. Taylor Swift, Evermore
159. David Bowie, ChangesNowBowie
160. Elliot Smith, Elliot Smith Expanded 25th Anniversary Edition
161. The White Stripes, Greatest Hits
162. Beastie Boys, Beastie Boys Music
163. Pylon, Pylon Box
164. David Bowie, Liveandwell.com
165. Pearl Jam, MTV Unplugged
166. Special Interest, The passion of
167. Stormlight, Natoma
168. Fake Names, Fake Names
169. Boneflower, Armour
170. The Lawrence Arms, Skeleton Coast
171. Stay Inside, Viewing
172. Daniel Blumberg, On&On
173. No Home, F’ing Hell
174. Kath Bloom, Bye Bye These are the Days
175. Closedown, Bask in the Dancing Light
176. Dream Wife, So When You Gonna
177. A. Swayze & the Ghosts, Paid Salvation
178. L. A. Witch, Play with fire
179. Awich, Partition
180. Lafawndah, The Fifth Season
181. Same, Plastic Western
182. Mozzy, Beyond bulletproof
183. Permanent Residue, S/T Tape
184. Fossil Arm, In Bad Decline
185. Wednesday, I was trying to describe you to someone
186. The Cool Greenhouse, The Cool Greenhousefpo
187. Megan thee Stallion, Good News
188. Bree Runway, 200ANDEVA
189. Wayfarer, A Romance with Violence
190. Brigid Dawson and the Mother Network, Battle of Apes
191. Lucinda Williams, Good souls better angels
192. Songdog, A Happy Endin
193. Infant Island, Sepulcher
194. Midewife, Forever
195. Deradoorian, Find the Sun
196. Sneaks, Happy Birthday
197. Alicia Keys, Alicia
198. Freddie Gibbs & The Alchemist, Alfredo
199. Sad13, Haunted Painting
200. Frock Destroyers, Frock4Life
201. Green Day, Father of all
202. Fra Fra, Funeral Songs
203. The Suicide Machine, Revolution Spring
204. THICK, 5 Years Behind
205. Thundercat, It is what it is
206. Cold Beat, Mother
207. Jonsi, Shiver
208. Roisin Murphy, Roisin Machine 
209. Lucrecia Dalt, No Era Solida
210. 21 Savage, Savage Mode II
211. King Princess, Cheap Queen
212. Junglepussy, JP4
213. Speaker Music, Black Nationalist Sonic Weaponry
214. Yaeji, What We Drew
215. Frail Hands, parted/departed/apart
216. Ora Cogan, , Bells in the Ruins
217. Apollo Brown and Che Noir, As God Intended
218. Wu Fei and Abigail Washburn, Wu Fei and Abigail Washburn
219. Autechre, Sign
220. TORRES, Silver Tongue
221. Nas, King’s Disease
222. Boston Manner, Glue
223. Sam Prekop, Comma
224. Shackleton, Primal Forms
225. JARV IS…, Beyond the Pale
226. Wind Atlas, Arche-Fossil
227. Days and Daze, Show me the blueprints
228. Nine Inch Nails, Ghosts V
229. Nine Inch Nails, Ghosts VI
230. A. G. Cook, Apple
231. Bad Bunny, YHLQMDLG 
232. Strike Anywhere, Nightmares of the West
233. Jake Blount, Spider Tales
234. dj  blackpower, BLP2020 King of the Night
235. Travis, 10 Songs
236. Arrested Development, Don’t Fight Your Demons
237. Tame Impala, The Slow Rush
238. Brendan Benson, Dear Life
239. Adulkt Life, Book of Curses
240. The Beths, Jump Rope Gazers
241. Palm Reader, Sleepless
242. Loma, Don’t Shy Away
243. Emma Ruth Rundle & Thou, May Our Chambers Be Full
244. Mr Bungle, The Raging Wrath of the Easter Bunny Demo
245. Soko, Feel Feelings
246. Numun, Voyage Au Soleil
247. KA, Descendents of Cain
248. Jay Electronica, A Written Testimony
249. Marilyn Manson, We Are Chaos
250. Crack Cloud, Pain Olympics
251. Wilma Archer, A Western Circular
252. Fossil Island, In Bad Decline
253. The Chats, High Risk Behavior
254. Sweeping Promises, Hunger for a way out
255. Nils Frahm, Empty
256. Yuja Wang, John Adams: Must the devil have all the good tunes?
257. Es, Less of Everything
258. Dua Lipa, Future Nostalgia
259. Paul McCartney, McCartney III
260. Kelly Lee Owens, Inner Song
261. Haley Williams, Petals for Armor
262. Car Seat Headrest, Making a door less open
263. FACS, Void Moments
264. JFDR, New Dreams
265. Lithics, Tower of age
266. Algiers, There is No Year
267. Nazar, Guerilla
268. Blawan, Immulsion
269. Gaika, Seguridad
270. Nuvolascura. As we suffer from memory and imagination
271. Melenas, Dias Raros
272. Behemouth, A Forest
273. Michael Rother, Dreaming
274. Mutant Love, Revolution Redacted Pt. 1
275. Lady Gaga, Chromatica
276. Annie, Dark Hearts
277. Anjimile, Giver Taker
278. Hilary Woods, Birthmarks
279. Hook, Crashed My Car
280. The Bombpops, Death in Venice Beach
281. Inexorum, Moonlit Naviation
282. Soccer96. Tactics
283. Soccer mommy, color theory
284. Cable Ties, Fair Enough
285. Alice Bag, Sister Dynamite
286. The Soft Pink Truth, Shall we go on sinning that grace May increase?
287. Four Year Strong, Brain Pain
288. Lil Uzi Vert, Eternal Atake
289. Ratboys, Printer’s Devil
290. Spun Out, Touch the Sound
291. Troye Sivan, In a dream
292. Jonnine, Super Natural
293. Hamerkop, remote
294. Drive-by truckers, the unraveling
295. Gorillaz, Song Machine, Season One: Strange TImez
296. Five Finger Death Punch, F8
297. Aesop Rock, Spirit World Field Guide
298. Small Bills, Don’t Play it Straight
299. The 1975, Notes on a Conditional Form
300. Godcaster, Long Haired Locusts
301. Fiona Apple, Fetch the bolt cutters
302. Garcia Peoples, Nightcap at Wits’ End
303. The Lovely Eggs, I Am Mormon
304. Pure X, Pure X
305. Code Orange, Under the Skin
306. Disclosure, Energy
307. James Williamson & Deniz Tek,Two to One
308. Andy Bell, The View from Halfway Down
309. Rafiq Bhatia, Standards Vol 1
310. Nicole Atkins, Italian Ice
311. The Revivalists, Made is Muscle Shoals
312. Mura Masa, RYC
313. envy, The Fallen Crimson
314. Duma, Duma
315. Big Freedia, Louder
316. Khruangbin, Mordechai
317. Bit of, teenage wasteland
318. Peach, Peach
319. Baxter Dury, The Night Chancers
320. Kevin Morby, Sundowner
321. Polo G, The Goat
322. Tamikrest, Tamotait
323. Bishop Nehru, Nehruvia: My disregarded thoughts
324. GVLLS, Ep 2020
325. Cantine Sbuccia Split by Deaf Lingo, Double No
326. Cowboy Junkies, Ghosts
327. Partynextdoor, Partymobile
328. David Keenan, A Beginners Guide to Bravery
329. Forest Drive West, Parallel Space
330. Folian, Blue Mirror
331. Wire, Mind Hive
332. Smarts, Who Needs Smarts Anyway
333. Ohmme, Fantasize Your Ghost
334. Black 47, Saint Patrick’s Day Party
335. CJ Fly, RUDEBWOY
336. Afterbirth, Four Dimensional Flesh
337. Kamaiyah, Got it Made
338. Future, High Off Life
339. Marcus King, El Dorado
340. Sufjan Stevens and Lowell Brams, Aporia
341. Lukas Nelson, Naked Garden
342. Bobby Conn, Recovery
343. Lido Pimienta, Miss Colombia
344. Wasted Shirt, Fungus II
345. Pa Salieu, Send them to Coventry
346. Bbymutha, Muthaleficent
347. Too Much, Club Emotion
348. Trupa Trupa, I’ll Find
349. Agnes Obel, Myopia
350. AWOLNATION, Angel Miners and the Lightning Riders
351. Peel Dream Machine, Agitprop Alterna
352. Brian Fallon, Local Honey
353. Royce Da 5’9″,  The Allegory
354. Melenas, Dias Raros
355. Isobel Campbell, There is no other
356. 070 Shake, Modus Vivendi
357. Billie Joe Armstrong, No Fun Mondays
358. No Joy, Motherhood
359. Jessie Ware, What’s Your Pleasure
360. Johanna Warren, Chaotic Good
361. Brent Faiyaz, F the World
362. Future Islands, As Long As You Are
363. Paul Weller, On Sunset
364. Buscabulla, Regresa
365. Delanila, Overloaded
366. Tide Lines, Eye of the Storm

Top 100 Running Songs of 2020

2020 may have been a crap year for wellness, concerts, health care workers, racial justice, weddings, coffee shops, graduations, sporting events, travel, and just about everything else, but it was a great year for music. Perhaps difficult times bring great art.

Here are my 100 favorite running songs that came out in 2020. These aren’t necessarily my 100 favorite songs of the year, but these are the ones that kept me moving.

Check out these songs. Whether you run, or not, these songs will put some pep in your step and help break the COVID blues.

You can listen to this playlist at: https://music.apple.com/us/playlist/2020-running-songs/pl.u-14Lmt8ZlaER

Top 100 Running Songs of 2020

1. Routine Pain, Spanish Love Songs
2. pink diamond, Charli XCX
3. might bang, might not, Little Simz
4. ooh la la (feat. Greg Nice & DJ Premier), Run The Jewels
5. Nonbinary, Arca
6. Savage Remix (feat. Beyoncé), Megan Thee Stallion
7. Serafina, BAMBARA
8. Deal Wiv It, Mura Masa & slowthai 
9. Darkseid, Grimes & 潘PAN
10. Blue World, Mac Miller

11. Yah Yah (feat. Royce da 5’9″, Black Thought, Q-Tip & Denaun), Eminem
12. State of the Union (STFU), Public Enemy
13. War, IDLES 
14. Pig Feet (feat. Kamasi Washington, G Perico & Daylyt), Terrace Martin & Denzel Curry
15. Got It On Me, Pop Smoke
16. Life Is Good (feat. Drake), Future 
17. Say the Name, clipping.
18. My Wanderings in the Weary Land, The Waterboys
19. Yoga, 645AR
20. Don’t Let the Bastards Get You Down, Anti-Flag
21. The Clap, The Chats
22. There Is No Year, Algiers
23. A Hero’s Death, Fontaines D.C.
24. American Crisis, Bob Mould
25. Strange Timez (feat. Robert Smith), Gorillaz
26. OUT FOR YOU, Le Butcherettes
27. Kawasaki Backflip, Dogleg
28. Blinding Lights, The Weeknd
29. Look Over Your Shoulder (feat. Kendrick Lamar), Busta Rhymes
30. Sweet, Porridge Radio
31. Boys on Stage, Soakie
32. I Just Want to Dance, Sault
33. Good Morning (feat. Pusha T, Swizz Beatz & Killer Mike), Black Thought
34. Come & Go, Juice WRLD & Marshmello

35. Broken Boy (feat. Iggy Pop), Cage the Elephant
36. The Difference (feat. Toro y Moi), Flume
37. Alert Level (Quarantined Mix), Ministry
38. AS Tearless (feat. Lalita), Amnesia Scanner
39. Hate this Pain, Tricky
40. Light Of Love, Florence + the Machine
41. Angel on the Road, X
42. Feign, Touché Amoré
43. Go!, L.A. Machina
44. You should be sad, Halsey
45. Nice to Meet Ya, Niall Horan
46. Exhale, Jónsi
47. Xxoplex, A. G. Cook
48. Television Sets, Alien Nosejob
49. All Lies, Sarah Mary Chadwick
50. Mandinga Times (feat. Kiko El Crazy), Rita Indiana
51. Shock Collar (feat. Dave Gahan), Humanist
52. Boomer, Bartees Strange
53. Joanna, Sevdaliza
54. House Arrest, Sofi Tukker & Gorgon City
55. Hope Hell High, The Flaming Lips, Deap Lips & Deap Vally
56. Good Morning (feat. Pusha T, Swizz Beatz & Killer Mike), Black Thought
57. Amen, Logic
58. Therefore I Am, Billie Eilish
59. Speed Kills, Chubby and The Gang
60. Sports!, Dream Wife
61. NO MAÑANA, Black Eyed Peas & El Alfa
62. Oh Yeah!, Green Day
63. Pakistan, Siti Muharam
64. BB (BODYBAG), slowthai
65. Never Slow, Bishop Nehru
66. I’m Not Getting Excited, The Beths
67. Armageddon’s Back in Town, Drive-By Truckers
68. Say Less, Nothing
69. Jolene, Lingua Ignota
70. Maker, Anjimile
71. Morrow, 070 Shake
72. Iron Cut, Gaika
73. Voodoo Child, Tom Morello
74. Oh No, The Revivalists
75. Sandcastles, Cable Ties
76. Guide for the Perplexed, Thomas Feiner
77. Good to Be Alive, Brendan Benson
78. On the Floor, Perfume Genius
79. Last Sniff (feat. MF DOOM), Wilma Archer
80. I’m Not Your Dog, Baxter Dury
81. Foam, Knot
82. Wonder, Lomelda
83. Long Road Home, Oneohtrix Point Never
84. Mmm (feat. Ragz Originale & BenjiFlow), Oscar #Worldpeace 
85. Legends Never Die (with Shania Twain), Orville Peck & Shania Twain

86. Slightly Sophisticated, Sneaks
87. they told us it was hard, but they were wrong., Ela Minus
88. Four Seasons Medley: Four Seasons / Dark Ocean Waltz, Wu Fei & Abigail Washburn
89. Antigravity Love, Krust
90. Blitzkrieg Bop/Backseat Freestyle/Una, Grimes
91. Satan’s Combover, Jello Biafra & The Guantanamo School of Medicine
92. KKK Tattoo, Regional Justice Center
93. ATM (feat. Missy Elliott), Bree Runway
94. Bad Decisions, The Strokes
95. montgomery forever, The Front Bottoms
96. Night Crawling (feat Billy Idol), Miley Cyrus
97. Sweatpants Spiderman, Open Mike Eagle
98. You Better Move, Lil Uzi Vert
99. Primed and Ready, Wire
100. Kingdom Of Ends, Róisín Murphy

DrumRunMarathon: Running in to the Pain

When I ran my first marathon a decade ago, I rode to the start line with an elite athlete. I asked her for any advice she could offer. She said, after 20 miles, we all hurt. It doesn’t matter how accomplished or novice you are at running, everyone hurts after 20 miles. The challenge is to keep going despite the pain.

I went in to yesterday’s DrumRunMarathon knowing it would hurt long before 20 miles. For the last two months I have been limping on a strained tendon in my left foot. In the last week, I pulled my groin twice. The weather forecast was for a sunny, 90 degree day. This was not going to be an easy run. And yet I chose to run in to the pain anyway.

The DrumRunMarathon is my riding on the coattails of Greg “The Governor” Pearson who is a fitness professional and the drummer in the Church for All People’s praise band. For years, Gov has developed an annual tradition of drumming in front of the Statehouse for 24 hours, sharing a poem called “The Gift of Love” that speaks of how God first loved us, and using this as a fundraiser for the church. This year, I jumped in to his parade and ran as he drummed.

I ran in to my pain inspired by Gov who had been drumming in front of the Statehouse for eight hours before I showed up and still had 16 hours to go.

I ran in to the pain as I watched peaceful people get escorted away from “the people’s house” because of the color of their skin.

I ran in to the pain as my foot swelled. My sports medicine doc cleared me to run, and I ran a solid pace that I was really happy with for the first 18 miles. But with no thanks to Phidippides a marathon is 26.2 miles and I began to wonder if my sports medicine doc is too permission giving.

I ran in to the pain as the temperature reached 90 degrees. In the morning, there was not a cloud in the sky and by a dozen miles in I was soaked with sweat. But I did a better job of staying hydrated and taking S Caps than I had in previous races. Also, some afternoon clouds and breezes went a long way.

I ran in to the pain and finished 26.2 miles.

In the moment, pain can feel all encompassing. But two lessons of running are that it doesn’t always get worse and that pain is temporary. My 26th mile was one of the strongest and fastest miles that I ran all day. And, on this side of the finish line, we built new relationships and raised over $2,500 for the work of the United Methodist Church for All People who is seeking to building diverse relationships of mutuality with all people. You can always support this work at: https://www.4allpeople.org/give

Hilltop U.S.A. 5K Race Report

The last few months have left us all with the question, what do you do when times are difficult?

What do you do when you can’t do the things that give you life?

What do you do when people are suffering?

Often, we can retreat and turn inward, or we can choose to walk in to the discomfort, embrace the pain, and overcome.

In a small way, that is what over 500 runners are doing this weekend around Columbus, Ohio. It is one hot weekend, but we are virtually running the Hilltop USA 5K, to benefit veteran’s organizations on the west side of Columbus. Although this race couldn’t happen in person, the support of the community was so great that it sold out and more spots were opened up.

Today I ran with Lisa Qualkenbush Dillahunt, who ran her own virtual race at the same time, leg 2 of the Columbus Running Company Grand Prix. We ran at Battelle Darby Creek Metro Park, one of my favorite places, but the heat and humidity were not fun. I decided to wear my race shirt for the 5K, which was a soaked cotton mess by the end. Nonetheless, the miles clicked off quickly. Despite having a gimpy foot, and it being a hot day, we ran a solid run, faster than our goals. Nothing close to a PR of any kind, but we ran in to the heat and discomfort and overcame.

More importantly, this race has already raised over $3,000 to help veterans organizations. This will assist those heroes who walked in to truly difficult situations and overcame.

Rise above!

 

 

Music of the Year (so far)

2020 has been a crap year by many measures–just ask the 9,859,738 families of people with confirmed cases of coronavirus or the 400 year echo of black voices crying out, I can’t breathe.

But from all this pain has come great art.

In my unprofessional opinion, here are my 100 favorite albums from the first half of 2020 and my 100 favorite running songs from the first half of the year. There has been so much good music this year, I still have a couple of dozens albums I am waiting to find time to listen to. There was been more good music than what would fit on this list. I don’t pretend to be an expert in any of this, but if you are looking for something good to listen to, this a good place to start:

RUNNING SONGS OF THE YEAR (2020)

Listen to this playlist at: https://music.apple.com/us/playlist/2020-running-songs/pl.u-14Lmt8ZlaER

1. Routine Pain, Spanish Love Songs
2. might bang, might not, Little Simz
3. pink diamond, Charli XCX
4. Savage Remix (feat. Beyoncé), Megan Thee Stallion
5. Deal Wiv It, Mura Masa & slowthai
6. Blue World, Mac Miller
7. Darkseid, Grimes & 潘PAN
8. State of the Union (STFU), Public Enemy
9. Yah Yah (feat. Royce da 5’9″, Black Thought, Q-Tip & Denaun), Eminem
10. Pig Feet (feat. Kamasi Washington, G Perico & Daylyt), Terrace Martin & Denzel Curry
11. Serafina, BAMBARA
12. American Crisis, Bob Mould
13. Don’t Let the Bastards Get You Down, Anti-Flag
14. OUT FOR YOU, Le Butcherettes
15. Kawasaki Backflip, Dogleg
16. Blinding Lights, The Weeknd
17. Life Is Good (feat. Drake), Future
18. Sweet, Porridge Radio
19. Boys on Stage, Soakie
20. Broken Boy (feat. Iggy Pop), Cage the Elephant
21. The Difference (feat. Toro y Moi), Flume
22. Angel on the Road, X
23. Alert Level (Quarantined Mix), Ministry
24. You should be sad, Halsey
25. Light Of Love, Florence + the Machine
26. walking in the snow, Run The Jewels
27. Gospel For a New Century, Yves Tumor
28. AS Tearless (feat. Lalita), Amnesia Scanner
29. Television Sets, Alien Nosejob
30. Shock Collar (feat. Dave Gahan), Humanist
31. En la Oscuridad, Xibalba
32. Consider, Gouge Away
33. Jolly F****r, Sleaford Mods
34. Hope Hell High, The Flaming Lips, Deap Lips & Deap Vally
35. NO MAÑANA, Black Eyed Peas & El Alfa
36. Speed Kills, Chubby and The Gang
37. Oh Yeah!, Green Day
38. Nice to Meet Ya, Niall Horan
39. BB (BODYBAG), slowthai
40. ONLY, ZHU & Tinashe
41. Never Slow, Bishop Nehru
42. I’m Not Getting Excited, The Beths
43. ATM, Too Free
44. Something Wicked, Trash Talk & Kenny Beats
45. Quick Escape, Pearl Jam
46. This Is War, Five Finger Death Punch
47. In the Doghouse, The Bombpops
48. G-Flat Gumbo, Songdog
49. All Lies, Sarah Mary Chadwick
50. Armageddon’s Back in Town, Drive-By Truckers
51. Here They Come, Hamilton Leithauser
52. Morrow, 070 Shake
53. Spark, Alice Bag
54. Oh No, The Revivalists
55. Guide for the Perplexed, Thomas Feiner
56. Good to Be Alive, Brendan Benson
57. On the Floor, Perfume Genius
58. Isolation Blues (Blame It On The Pathogen), J.S. Ondara
59. Last Sniff (feat. MF DOOM), Wilma Archer
60. Funny Thing, Thundercat
61. I’m Not Your Dog, Baxter Dury
62. How Could You (feat. Joseph Talbot), Jehnny Beth
63. Baby’s First Word, 2nd Grade
64. Sour Candy, Lady Gaga & BLACKPINK
65. Unspoken, Infant Island
66. Never Ending Teeth, Afterbirth
67. Twisted, Johanna Warren
68. Chemical, Es
69. Country Song, Fossil Arm
70. I’m a Wreck, AWOLNATION
71. Sandcastles, Cable Ties
72. Exhale, Jónsi
73. they told us it was hard, but they were wrong., Ela Minus
74. No Time For Love Like Now, Michael Stipe & Big Red Machine
75. Parallel Space (Conforce Remix), Forest Drive West
76. Unwanted, Folian
77. Runaway Dog, Retirement Party
78. Four Seasons Medley: Four Seasons / Dark Ocean Waltz, Wu Fei & Abigail Washburn
79. Amidinin Tad Adouniya, Tamikrest
80. The Brothers Williams Said, The Innocence Mission
81. Die without You, Dawn Richard
82. they told us it was hard, but they were wrong. (Edit), Ela Minus
83. It’s Cool, Four Year Strong
84. Simmer, Hayley Williams
85. One Good Day, Control Top
86. Lockdown, Anderson .Paak
87. KKK Tattoo, Regional Justice Center
88. People, The 1975
89. No Time To Die, Billie Eilish
90. Cold Sweat, asia
91. Cancelled, Attila
92. Worry, Songhoy Blues
93. Hands, Lithics
94. You Better Move, Lil Uzi Vert
95. Consider, Gouge Away
96. Void Walker, FACS
97. Spineless, Jools
98. ringtone (feat. Charli XCX, Rico Nasty, Kero Kero Bonito) [remix], 100 gecs
99. Beaten Down, Sharon Van Etten
100. Shut It Down 2020, Neil Young & Crazy Horse

ALBUMS OF THE YEAR (2020)

1. Spanish Love Songs, Brave Faces Everyone
2. Run the Jewels, RTJ4
3. Sarah Mary Chadwick, Please Daddy
4. Mac Miller, Circles
5. Amnesia Scanner, Tearless
6. Perfume Genius, Set my heart on fire immediately
7. Moses Sumney, grae
8. BAMBARA, Stray
9. Jehnny Beth, To Love is to Love
10. Floral Tattoo, You can never have a long enough head start
11. Jeff Rosenstock, No Dream
12. Halsey, Manic
13. Porridge Radio, Every Bad
14. Dogleg, Melee
15. Humanist, Humanist
16. The Innocence Mission, See You Tomorrow
17. Le Butcherettes, Don’t Bleed
18. Code Orange, Underneath
19. Ian William Craig, Red Sun Through Smoke
20. ChangesNowBowie, David Bowie
21. Liveandwell.com, David Bowie
22. 2nd Grade, Hit to Hit
23. Waxahatchee, Saint Cloud
24. Soakie, Soakie
25. Diet Cig, Do you wonder about me?
26. Chubby and the Gang, Speed Kills
27. Wu Fei and Abigail Washburn, Wu Fei and Abigail Washburn
28. Black Eyed Peas, Translation
29. Same, Plastic Western
30. Hamilton Leithauser, The Loves of your life
31. Mozzy, Beyond bulletproof
32. Permanent Residue, S/T Tape
33. Fossil Arm, In Bad Decline
34. Alien Nosejob, Suddenly Everything is Twice as Loud
35. X, Alphabetland
36. Coriky, Coriky
37. Wednesday, I was trying to describe you to someone
38. Brigid Dawson and the Mother Network, Battle of Apes
39. Lucinda Williams, Good souls better angels
40. Songdog, A Happy Endin
41. Infant Island, Sepulcher
42. Fra Fra, Funeral Songs
43. Midewife, Forever
44. THICK, 5 Years Behind
45. Thundercat, It is what it is
46. Eminem, Music to be Murdered By
47. Body Count, Carnivore
48. Pearl Jam, Gigaton
49. Yaeji, What We Drew
50. Sleaford Mods, All That Glue
51. Eighth Blackbird, Singing in the Dead of Night
52. Childish Gambino, 3.15.20
53. The Cravats, Hooraland
54. Little Simz, Drop 6
55. Anti-Flag, 20/20 Vision
56. TORRES, Silver Tongue
57. Nine Inch Nails, Ghosts V
58. Nine Inch Nails, Ghosts VI
59. Rita Sawayama, Sawayama
60. Dead lips, dead lips
61. Green Day, Father of all
62. Brendan Benson, Dear Life
63. KA, Descendents of Cain
64. Jay Electronica, A Written Testimony
65. Wilma Archer, A Western Circular
66. The Weekend, After Hours
67. Charli XCX, how I’m feeling now
68. Grimes, Miss Anthropocene
69. Fossil Island, In Bad Decline
70. The Chats, High Risk Behavior
71. Nils Frahm, Empty
72. Yuja Wang, John Adams: Must the devil have all the good tunes?
73. Es, Less of Everything
74. Haley Williams, Petals for Armor
75. Car Seat Headrest, Making a door less open
76. FACS, Void Moments
77. JFDR, New Dreams
78. Same, Plastic Western
79. Lithics, Tower of age
80. Melenas, Dias Raros
81. Behemouth, A Forest
82. Mutant Love, Revolution Redacted Pt. 1
83. Lady Gaga, Chromatica
84. Hilary Woods, Birthmarks
85. Hook, Crashed My Car
86. The Bombpops, Death in Venice Beach
87. Soccer mommy, color theory
88. Cable Ties, Fair Enough
89. Alice Bag, Sister Dynamite
90. The Soft Pink Truth, Shall we go on sinning that grace May increase?
91. Four Year Strong, Brain Pain
92. Lil Uzi Vert, Eternal Atake
93. Ratboys, Printer’s Devil
94. J. S. Ondara, Folk n Roll Vol 1, Tales of Isolation
95. Hanerkop, remote
96. Drive-by truckers, the unraveling
97. Five Finger Death Punch, F8
98. Megan thee Stallion, Suga
99. The 1975, Notes on a Conditional Form
100. Fiona Apple, Fetch the bolt cutters

 

 

Life Marathon, the last un-canceled run (for now)

Life is persistent. We live so often in fear of death. But the reality is that life is a strong force that finds a way. Our bodies do amazing work in combating viruses and bacteria and so many threats. Life is found around the world in places that we would call uninhabitable: from the bottom of the ocean to the most scorching desert. Life is a persistent force.

Today marks the end of the un-canceled racing series (although rumor has it something new may be coming). This series began with a six week series in March and a second six-weeks was added in May. During each of these rounds runners completed a 5K, 8K, 10K, 15K, half marathon, marathon, and ultra marathon.

Yesterday I completed the second round and full series of un-canceled with a marathon. I had hoped to finish the marathon in under five hours and for the first half of the run i was on track to do that.

At the halfway mark i stopped at a convenience store for a bathroom and water break. That put me a couple minutes behind pace, but i went right back to chipping away at it. However, as the miles moved in to the 20s, the temperature reached in to the 80s. A rule of thumb for running is that it feels 20 degrees hotter while running and heat has always been my nemesis.

In order to be safe, I knew I needed to make a second water stop and with the cloudless heat, I knew that I wouldn’t be able to make up this time. But the goal for this was not the completion of a singular race, but the un-canceled series. I accepted that this would be how the day would end. I was able to run the next couple of miles well, but ended up run-walking miles 24 and 25, and straight out walked the last 1.2.

I did not finish the way I would’ve liked, but life persisted. I kept moving forward when it would’ve been easier to quit. Although this was one of the slowest marathon times I’ve ever run I was happy with my effort and the fact that I could finish.

Life does not give up easily. Since the start of the coronavirus I have now completed 18 virtual races. Yes, I know that is ridiculous, but it is ultimately a statement that life wins!

Perseverance 8K, yet another un-canceled run

Perseverance is the theme for this week’s Un-Canceled run.

The theme of this blog is perseverance. I am not a fast runner, I am not a gifted athlete. I have an awkward body that often feels to me like it’s been cobbled together from spare parts. But the one thing I have is perseverance. I can keep going when it gets tough. I can keep my legs moving when I journey in to the pain cave.

Today I ran the Un-canceled2 8K run. I didn’t run at record-setting pace, but considering a week ago I ran a 50K, and that this is my 17th race since the start of the coronavirus, it was solid. I ran negative splits, with each mile faster than the one before. It was a good perseverance run.

However, when I think about perseverance, real perseverance isn’t in the runner who keeps going with sore legs, it is in the people around me who keep going with difficult lives.

The single mother, raising her kids, who is tired from working multiple jobs, but keeps going to support her family, is perseverance.

The person who wakes up every day with the weight of depression and keeps going is perseverance.

The protester who is tired from being on the streets for a week and a half and goes back out again, in to the heat, to build a more just society is perseverance.

Look around you. Who are the people you see that keep going when life is hard? There are a million examples of perseverance around us that can strengthen us when we feel weak.

Run the Album: RTJ4

I listen to a ridiculous amount of music and yet it is rare that an album stops me in my tracks. This weekend that has happened with Run the Jewels new album, RTJ4.

Last week I re-recorded my sermon on Saturday because it no longer seemed relevant to the quickly evolving national response to the murder of George Floyd. Yet, somehow, Run The Jewels released an album on Friday that sounds like they recorded it today.

The album powerfully grabs the listener with the opening track, “yankee and the brave”. The video for the next song, “ooh la la”, prophetically shows streets filled with protesters, as capitalism is set on fire, filmed at a time when social distancing was closely practiced. My favorite song on the album “walking in the snow” begins with the lyric:

And every day on evening news they feed you fear for free
And you so numb you watch the cops choke out a man like me
And ’til my voice goes from a shriek to whisper, “I can’t breathe”

Recorded before the killing of George Floyd, this lyric pointed to the murder of Eric Garner. And yet, the echo of so many black people who have cried out “I can’t breathe” illustrates the power of this album. Run the Jewels pointed to the racism and oppression that was already happening before it reached the current level of collective consciousness. As a result, Run the Jewels have provided the soundtrack for this moment. The same song powerfully proclaims, “Never forget in the story of Jesus, the hero was killed by the state.”

Without pause, the next song, JU$T, somehow hits even harder. Featuring Pharrell Williams and Zack de la Rocha, the folly of the things often seen as success are criticized as the chorus echoes, “Look at all these slave masters posing on your dollar.”

Throughout this album, Killer Mike and El-P play off each other masterfully. They complete each other’s sentences, often doing so with both a call to power and a sense of humor. The combination of these elements are reminiscent of the best of Public Enemy or Wu Tang who held together a serious message, but didn’t take themselves seriously. This return to an old school style makes the incredibly relevant messages even more accessible.

The album ends with an epic blues/jazz/spoken word style song, “a few words for the firing squad.” The most heartfelt song on the album is delivered from deep within the soul and ends with horns blazing and the lyrics:

Black child in America, the fact that I made it was magic
Black and beautiful, the world broke my momma heart, and she died an addict
God blessed me to redeem her in my thought, words and my actions
Satisfaction for The Devil, g@ddammit, he’ll never ever have it
This is for the do-gooders that the no-gooders used and then abused
For the truth tellers tied to the whippin’ post, left beaten, battered, bruised
For the ones whose body hung from a tree like a piece of strange fruit
Go hard, last words to the firing squad was, “F— you too”

Sugar Badger 50K

So much of this year in Ohio has been darkness. Not only the darkness of pandemic and racial tension, but dark skies and rain.

Today was a beautiful day. Not a cloud in the sky. But maybe I could’ve used some.

I set out this morning to run the Sugar Badger 50K. This run was supposed to take place this past weekend in Wisconsin. It would’ve been the inaugural run. But COVID happened.

Initially, I was going to run the virtual race in my favorite place to run,  Delaware State Park. But as the theologian John Lennon said, life is what happens when you are busy making other plans. So I got up early (too early) this morning and ran around the city of Columbus.

It has been a tough week for Columbus. Just as coronavirus restrictions have begun to ease, the undercurrent of racial tension has emerged. Protesters have filled the streets calling for a new and better way to live in relationships, the dismantling of broken systems, and the end to police brutality.

Early this morning, when I started, Columbus was quiet. It was a cool and beautiful morning as I ran down tree lined trails. For the first half of the run, I stayed well on track to reach my goal of finishing under six hours. In fact, I ran the first few miles faster than needed and was able to use and build that cushion.

About 15 miles in I stopped at a gas station to rehydrate. The time waiting in line evaporated my cushion and after this stop my calves began to cramp. Nonetheless, for the next seven or eight miles I still stayed right around the necessary pace to break six hours.

The final eight miles were physically difficult. It was hard to run as my calves tightened. Walking became more regular. The cloudless day took its toll on me.

I finished in 6:11:26. I didn’t finish in the time I hoped, but still set a PR by 18 minutes. Not a bad day.

The theme for this week in the Un-cancelled series is community.

After today’s run, our church held an outdoor worship service to bless the staff and volunteers of the United Methodist Free Store, which will re-open tomorrow after being closed for the coronavirus.

For 21 years, the Free Store has brought diverse people together in a environment of acceptance and radical hospitality. In these challenging times of pandemic and systemic racism, we know that work is more important than ever before. We believe there has never been a better time to be the Church, and we remain committed to a South Side that is welcoming and supportive of ALL people.